I Am No Longer What I Used To Be
At a certain point in life - in everyone’s life and mine too - will come to a point where things change. What used to be personified no longer would feel the same. What used to be will not stay the ways they were. They come to a point where everyone simply lives in the way that only makes each of them happy, for himself/herself alone.
Metaphysically said, we come alone and go home alone. While we are all here, each one of us has to take good care of ourselves. It is our sole duty to ensure it and to take good charge on our existence. It is our self responsibility to care for oneself.
People change. Time constantly changes. I change.
Change, while it may disrupt the comfort zone, is a catalyst for life to get better. Question is, how does my mind think of it? Philosophically, when the mind focuses on good change, life is guided towards the better path and the right choices.
When there is something to learn, there will be change. To learn and to change are synonymous; they go hand in hand. They are in a relationship to teach mankind to be free from expectations. What is important is on the consciousness towards the lessons and the changes. I need to have the positive mindset to achieve the positive change. It is mindful to change with love, for love and not harbouring any ill intentions. Intention, in life, is everything. It is the seed that gives meaning to Life.
It is a state of happiness that makes life fulfilled. Life is to be lived with the deep sense of meaning to make it worthwhile. No matter how ruffled the past was, happiness makes the future spotless. Happiness has the ability to allow the feeling of peace be felt, even though it might be fleeting. With happiness, the heart feels full. When it is full, there is heightened sense of loving and respecting oneself.
All things in life, whether they are personal experiences or the worldly episodes that surround all humans, are constantly in flux. They are constantly evolving and subject to alteration. They would not remain static. Change has to be taken with positive mindset with the right attitude, right mindset. There has to be little room for regrets but only filled with huge unreserved and unconditional gratitude for all the lessons – good or otherwise, learned and for all the deeds – calculated or otherwise, received.
Reality is, as I add more years to my age, it must come to a point where I regroup all of my collective consciousness into one. I should not live in confusion but call the strength to walk on the roads less travelled. Life pains do not come from outside (of me) but they are what inside. To heal these pains, I need to change on the ways I see and feel things, on a bigger scope. Wisely, I have to escape from taking them personally. To get personal leads me to failure. All things are to happen for good reasons.
It will be wise that I live my remaining years with the absolute focus to make things right for the right thing – by me and for me. I need to search deep to find what I truly want and partake to build a relationship with it. I have to understand that love can work for me and it works against me too. It is how I balance to live with it to be in line with what I want my life to be. I have to respect the courage to change the things I can while accept things I cannot.
Today, I shall no longer wait for things to get better. Life will always be complicated and I must not make it worse. On the contrary, Life is simple - it is the way I think that makes it difficult. I have to teach myself to be happy right now before I run out of time. With every opportunities presented, I must hold them with positive attitude. Each opportunity has its own purpose. The purpose is to teach me to free myself from self righteousness and live in humility to admit mistakes. In its admission, I will have a better understanding on what ego is all about.
Today, what is the one thing that I truly want? It has to have a clear identity where it teaches me to reconnect with myself. I have to build inner peace and harmony with my physical, mental, emotional and spiritual aspects of ‘I Am’. My spirit has to be free for my soul to soar. My peace has to be peacefully lived for the healthy state of being.
Today, I need to engage with my soul and to return to a state of nothingness, at zero. I should re-learn on the meaning of being happy, of what peace is and what constitutes to be a good human. I need to be in the moment of just be. The purpose of my life should be a primary task. I have to treat myself better than I treat others. However, I must not ruin other people’s happiness just because I cannot find mine.
Yesterday, I used to write a lot. Today, I am taking the silent pills. In silence, God appears. I used to be active but taking slow steps, or plainly doing nothing, brings me more joy today. Doing nothing is doing something in itself. Yesterday, I wanted to read so much but today, enough is enough.
Today, I need to live to embrace with what I have learned. I have to breathe and experience them. The greed for too much intellect will not make me wise and, definitely, it will not make me to have full crystal clarity on the abstract of life. Today is about living a life not fixated to any specific outcome or to the fears of the unknown. Ignorance is bliss. Faith comes from trusting in something larger than oneself.
It is rewarding to live a life as a proactive doer but the doer has to know his/her limitations. Talk is cheap. It is important that I am not that everyone who talks and not making good conversation.
Primarily, Life is a flow with many opportunities around. Am I aware of these opportunities? The outcome to what I become is determined on how I perceive with the things around me. I become what I think about - the 'me' that I see shall be the 'me' I will be. Should I want love, I have to be Love. Should I desire peace, peace has to be inside me. It is the Law of Attractions and Vibrations. My inner world creates my outer world.
I need to see good in all things. My mental gymnastic has to be articulated with love and positivity. It is not my job to change someone’s attitude but to change my perception towards him/her. The key to the road of success, with happiness and peace live together, is to surround myself with people who encourage and affirm me all the time. Loving and respecting oneself honour the highest sense of meaning to Life.
