Facing Truth

[This article was posted in another social media platform.  However, I feel it is good for it to be part of 'The Blessed Life'.  The memory of him gives me the courage and strength to live.] 

 

Facing The Truth

 

Today, I am going to pluck up my courage.  I shall confront my soul to have the strength to face my pains.  To deal with my grief.  To start to live again.  To cherish for all the beautiful memories.  

It is in writing how I feel that I will feel I am alive.  That I own the process to let go and to move forward.  It is an admission to recognize that I am in a state of deep grief and mourning.  This writing will bring me comfort in the bleakest time of my life to accept with what is going on.

Today, I want to embrace about being alive and to understand the most of things, the most of life.  I need to be in the Be-ing.  I need to take charge to put my life back together.  I need to face the change in my life.  I need to surround myself in the circle of Divine Love.  I have to step off the edge of grief where it has brought me down into the abyss to recover for the greater experience and purpose.

While it is still painful, while I still cry every day and there are days crying buckets, I need to keep telling myself that in every moment of life, everything is happening as it should be happening.  That I am living but not in control of being alive.  My own life.  I need to be in the full splendor of life in its pure essence.  The evolution.  The consciousness.  The awareness.

In every beginning, there is an end.  Everything in life is temporary.  Nothing lasts forever; not the sunrise, or misfortunes nor wealth.  All these come and they go, even our own lives.  I may think that I have lost an important partner but I am not.  I may lose a wallet, a key.  I may lose a focus or a determination but we - you and I, do not lose a person who is the whole world to us.

The one thing that will change my current perception today is to understand, in both happy times or sad, that life will reveal itself according to how I see myself in relationship to it.  This will determine that state of my awareness, the mode of my consciousness to living.  It will correspondingly determine how life consciousness will manifest.

Loss and grief are constant.  We all have to face it at some point.  Throughout our entire existence, we will have to say goodbye to people, to situations or to our beloved objects.  Grieving the loss of a loved one can make time to stand still.  It can be painful and debilitating as life goes on.  It can be a lonely journey as there is an emptiness that will always remain.  All loss leaves scars.

Today, I have to accept my way of life.  That my best partner has left me.  Our shared life has come to separate us together.  I have to face my future knowing well that I have lost a true friend who provided me contentedness, balance and infinite joy.

Today, I am certain that Heaven celebrates.  The moment I start to pen my thoughts into words and trust my instinct, I surrender to be alive.  In this moment of time, my late friend will be happy.  Just as I see a tree that grows from a barren and cracked rock, yet it finds the courage to defy the impossible and reaches for the sun.  That, as I tell myself, is the way that he wants me to live, for the remainder of my life.

I am grieving for as long as I am missing him, for as long as my life goes on.