The What If

It is a natural thing to think of the what if.  Perhaps it has to do with life being rather unpredictable.  But, it is not the what if is the problem, it is the next thought that matters.  It is what in my mind that holds me captive.
 
Somehow, when there is a thought of what if, there is usually anxiety, doubt and fear.  There is a feeling of insecurity.  Do I have to entertain all the what ifs in my life?  

Am I hard wired with uncertainties?  What is causing me to think with all the what ifs?

Entertaining a what if is like building a barricade to the future.  It fills life with worries and more worries.  It increases self doubt and hinders any potential of encountering the best in life.

It is normal that I will have moments where I worry about the what if.  While it prompts me to think through, I should not make it to become overwhelming.  The more I put my energy on the what if, it shall interfere with problem solving.

Yes, a what if may occur and I have to use it to have more faith in life.  Fear is, afterall, an emotion of F-alse E-xpectation A-ppearing R-eal.  I should not let it harm me all the time.  I have to believe that life is always beautiful and that I am a decision maker, not the what if.

I have to embrace with the idea that a what if is a necessary part of life.  But, I should not make it a big part in my thinking process.  It is there for a reason.  Primarily, it is there because I do not take charge of my life.  

I let negativity to manifest and I have become a prisoner to it.  I have to let go, let god and to keep erasing and deleting my old beliefs.

I love you.  I am sorry.  Please forgive me.  Thank you.