Taking Full Responsibility

Dear my dearest Self,

When your world is crumpling down, can it be it's your own actions are causing it?  Can you accept there is nobody else to blame but you?  When you start to have issue with your health, when your heart is broken, when you cry the whole night out of confusion .. can you accept these mishaps are the karma you inflicted upon yourself?

How often do you watch your own thoughts?  How aware are you to observe your mouth inventing negativity?  How much do you blame others and not taking full responsibility to own your words, thoughts, deeds and actions?

For that matter, are you capable of saying 'I am sorry and please forgive me'?  When saying these phrases, are they said from your soul or just lip service?  Are you capable to recognize and owned your errors, mistakes and wrong doings?

My dearest Self, as long as you live, there will always be something that will not be right.  It is a hard truth.  Your intellect is ego driven.  The ego will not let you go even when you spend hours and years in prayers, in meditation.  

While it lessens, it has to be your burning desire to stay positive, deep yearning for heightened consciousness and continuous cleaning and erasing that shall save you.

My dearest Self, have you been paying attention to all the happenings throughout your life?  What you sow is what you reap.  Every actions has its consequences.  You cannot, and should not, let your words, thoughts, deeds and actions be the terrorist to destroy your soul.  Peace, my dearest self, is more precious than triumph.

My dearest Self, you are born from love and never, never, never wash LOVE away.  While you will never have a halo over your head, live for LOVE and let the energy flourish.  To be LOVE, you have to own it and take full responsibility for its growth.  Only LOVE heals.  Only LOVE makes you to succeed.

I love you.  I am sorry.  Please forgive me.  Thank you.