Accepting The Flaws
When I fully accept my flaws - the errors, the mistakes and all the wrong doings - within me, the lighter I shall feel. But, I cannot lightly accept them. It has to be done with full wanting, full realization and full acceptance. I must not give excuses for my bad attitudes, bad behaviours and bad manners.
Acceptance is a tricky word. It is an active verb to mean that I have to know what I really am. That, I have to take it in and be non judgmental about myself (and others).
I have to look into my attitudes, behaviours and manners. In the way I think, the way I speak and how I act and react to every situations. Is my body language showing compassion? What about the tone of my voice? Is it a tone of arrogance? What about my words? Are they encouraging and positive? When communicating, do I engage or do I debate?
Should I want to reform, I have to accept the ways of my actions. How aware am I with my own outward bearing, the ways of behaving, towards others? How can I ever know and do I know?
Putting a barrier between me and my ego would help me. But, how acquaint am I with my ego? The insistence to look into my bad attitudes, behaviours and manners makes my acceptance on my flaws a big flop.
I have to look deep and deeper. I cannot be thinking that I am always good, always right, always in the know and always loving and caring. Unless I walk with wings of an angel and a mind of super intelligence, I ought to accept that I am a flawed human. That, my earthly duty is to take courage to accept my flaws.
When I learn to love myself and accept my flaws, I can love other people so much better. Right now, I have to recognize and embrace these flaws so that I can learn from them.
I love you. I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.