If Only I Truly Know

The pain, the suffering, the discomfort .. what I experience in my way of living, in this life, is essentially asking myself to take heart. It is asking that I own it so that I can take full responsibility.

Obviously this energy that comes into me is being pushed by my own button in me. By my past memories that keep playing in my way of life.

This pain, this suffering, this discomfort .. they are my reminder that I am still a problem soul.  That will stay, perhaps adding more, should I not open myself to clean, erase the past memories to bring myself to zero, back to divinity.

I must take heart that truth and happiness will get me in the end.  But, in order to be on that road, I must be aware of how and what I should be doing.

Every part of the journey in life requires the light to light the path. This light eases the walk. This light shines the vision that encloses all understanding.

I find trust the light.  In this trust, the Divine opens the door and bring me closer with the right thing, the right people that support me in my path.

If only I can hear the voices of the silenced spirits, perhaps my understanding will stretch beyond all understanding.

If only I can hear my inner child ..
If only I can hear the walls ..
If only I can hear the chair, the bed, the plate ..
If only I understand the language of the bird, the wind ..
If only I know the energy of colours, smell ..

If only I truly know the full extent of forgiveness ..
If only I truly know that I can forgive and have been forgiven ..

The voices to all these are the freedom to all the past.  There'll be no limitations thereafter, except those I believe in.

The voices are the sword, whatever it cuts, it gives life.  The voices are the energy of Love that wanting my attention that is the pillar of "I" towards zero.

Zero is that emptiness or void where no thoughts, beliefs or data can exist. It is the background witness off life that can allow inspiration to reach me from the Source.

The number one thing that I can do to unblock my energy so that I can attract to hear all the voices and all the big dreams I want is to become ONE with everything and anything.

I forgive myself as I forgive anything and everything that have been surrounding me. That I have accumulated. That I have been accepting and creating.

If only I truly know ...

I love you. I am sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you.