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The Beauty Of Silence

I have to learn to go into silent mode, where my mind thinks of nothing and be nothing.  I have to go back into that one atom that makes my human body.  I have to relive the experience.  I have to find it through prayers, by sitting to meditate or simply becoming quiet and dismiss any incoming and outgoing thoughts. I have to reboot my life back into silence and remember the purpose why I am here.  It will be amazing to feel the same emotions I felt in the past are being felt again.  I have to listen to the beauty of silence as it has so much to tell me.  Miseries in life come from not being able to quiet the mind. All over the vast Universe is the language of silence.  Where the Universe talks without speaking.  Where it hears without listening.  When there is no exchange of words and expression, silence nourishes wisdom.  Silence brings truth, where noise creates illusions. When the world is a little more silence, if every humans keep quiet, there will be air of tranquillity.  In the

Can I accept?

  Can I accept that when I cannot tahan someone's attitude / behaviour that the same attitude / behaviour exists in me?  That, this person is the mirror of my deep unresolved issue?  Am I aware what I see in others, exists in me?  Are the flaws I see in others actually a reflection of myself? I should pay more attention to go inward and simply not to pass judgment too quickly.  Does the person whom I criticize, judge and get me worked up so easily has something to do with my unresolved issues?  Are their existence is to let me to learn about myself? Life is a delicate process of working to better myself.  While self awareness allows me to be with the betterment for beautiful life to unfold, I have to let this awareness guides me deeper.   Every time when I am about to say something unpleasant about others, or that I am going to react negatively, I have to take in by looking at myself first.  Everything I see brings with it the opportunity to see myself.   I have to be willing to lo

It Is Okay

It is okay not to have many friends.  It is okay not to be famous or popular.  It is ok if I do not have much to contribute, to say or to share.  It is okay to live a quiet life.  Looking to fit in and to be wanted all the time, in life, has its downside.  It is a desperate moment of deep loneliness.  It may also be about bloating up the ego. Is it important to have many friends?  Is it worthwhile to be famous and popular?  Why choose a quiet life?  Is quantity better than quality? Instead of worrying to be accepted, I have to accept and love myself first, as who I am.  Who I am and to live with meaning are the reasons for me being alive.  When I can love and accept my own uniqueness, the world I live in will be in harmony with my energy.  It is my attitude that matters, that is important and not my status. When I can accept at the philosophical phrase, 'I was born alone and that I die alone', status to fit-in in society is not everything.  What counts is to strive to be true t

What Have I Done?

I thank you, Mr Mikhail Gorbachev with your meaningful words, "Sometimes it's difficult to accept, to recognise one's own mistakes, but one must do it. I was guilty of overconfidence and arrogance, and I was punished for that."   I am guilty too, Mr Gorbachev.   That statement makes me to pause for thought - "What have I done?".  What good have I done for myself?  What have I done to make this life meaningful?  What could I have done better? This is a reset button question.  I should ask it every now and then, as much as I can.  It is a wake up call to ask myself whether there is anything that has occurred to me that has opened my eyes.   A question that I should ponder and to ask myself is there any regret on what I have done?  It is so that I can have a profound realization about life in general. To ask the question constantly will provide me with significant realization.  It will help me to pause and think before executing any actions and before verbalizi

Follow My Gut Instinct

When at a crossroad, follow the gut instinct.  Collectively, do what the mind, the heart and the gut is taking me.  Take the hue from my inner intuition and act.  Listening to my gut instinct can make a decision easier, without burdening myself. My soul knows what is right for me.  It knows what directions I need to take for my highest good and the good of my path.  While I have the thinking mind that is meant to be used, sometimes it pales in comparison to the inner wisdom of my intuition. I have to trust my gut for it knows what my head has not figured out yet.  When it feels right, then it must be.  Everything in life can deceive but my conscience will always keep it real for me.  My heart and my gut are better than my thinking mind.  Together, they are my best guide. I know the truth by the way it feels.  Truth is when my mind, my heart and my gut agree.  Good gut instincts usually tell what to do long before my mind has figured it out.  I have to be willing to trust my gut instinc

Let Me Internalize

While it is good to tell my mind to make a difference but, most importantly, I must know what kind of difference do I want to make.  Do I want it to be a rainbow for myself?  Or, do I share a pact to be a rainbow for someone's cloud too? I have to live for grandeur purposes and make heavenly missions.  I should instill emotional generosity along the way, every steps of the way.  It has to be in full glory where I can love myself as much as I would love others too.  Though there are differences in each human with identity and beauty, yet we are all the same.  We are all equal and worthy of the same dignity and respect. Everybody has a little of this and a little of that.  Everybody has the dark and also the light in them.  None of us are just black or white, or never wrong and always right.  No one exists without dualities or polarities.  Everybody has good and bad forces working with them, against them and within them.  Everybody is a teacher and a student at the same time, all the

Poison Ivy

The day I was born, I cried.  Why didn't I laugh instead?  Did my soul know that my mind would be trickery?  Was my soul missing home?  Was I acknowledging that my life would be a struggle?  Why crying, during infancy, became my only communication on arrival on Mother Earth? The trauma, upon birth, takes a lifetime to resolve.  Perhaps, that is the reason why I cried with my first breath.  The soul knows the long road ahead takes proper attention.  The soul knows that my mind, as I start to live as a human, plays a major role. One of the most important roles I can do is to recognize that the mind, my mind, is my own poison.  My mind has to work for me.  It has to think positive constantly.  Nobody can create a good life for me but myself. Making the time to teach my mind, and my spirit, how to be human is crucial.  Whatever beliefs, habits, memories, perceptions, programs, tendencies and thoughts stored in my mind have to work for me.  The mind can be my greatest ally or my worst e

All In My Life

All in my life is a journey to learn to heal.  Healing is a process that allows me to take charge of my thoughts, feelings and emotions.  I have to take full responsibility to heal myself.  When I heal a part of me, I heal that part of the world that I live in. Do I have to be ashamed that I need to heal myself?  Healing takes courage.  I have to accept the healing process.  There is a bigger meaning to it.  To love others, I must learn to love myself.  To release judgement of others, I must first release judgement of myself.  To heal others, I must first heal myself. I am learning how to accept my broken pieces.  I am slowly accepting how to make peace with the parts of me that are still catching up.  All in my life, there is something to heal.  They are the trust issues, fears and all the things I tried so hard but were never meant to be mine. For me to move forward and to be completely healed, I have to heal certain things over and over again.  It may take me a while to be where I n

The Loner

It is the way of the winding world.  The pandemic, unfortunate as it is, has something to teach humanity.  The social distancing is proving that it is a big okay to be a loner.  It shows there is comforting safety in being alone, keeping a distance from another human being.   With this pandemic, the social distancing is in place as not to put humans at risk of spreading the virus.  It puts space between individuals.  The one metre distancing made mandatory shows that I, as human, is important.  I have to be a responsible being and have to take responsibility. As social distancing is now a year put into practice, it brings a spiritual sense of positivity in doing so.  The habit is to let humans be comfortable distancing with one another.  Personally, I have to admit the peace that comes along with social distancing.   A loner, nonetheless, is not alone as the entire universe is inside him or her.  Being surrounded by the wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world.  With this notio

Have I Been Paying Attention?

How much do I pay attention to everything that is happening with me?  Do I take stock of my experiences, thoughts and emotions?  Am I aware of all the wear and tear on all the material things I own in the house? While I have been telling myself to be responsible, and to take charge on my responsibilities, have I been taking things for granted?  Do I assume that everything in my life is well and good?  Do I take my loved ones for granted?  Do I take my happiness, health and peace for granted? When I do not pay attention with what I have, it is obvious that I am taking things for granted.  It is an irresponsible habit that can lead me to behave in careless ways.  Or, it might lead me to mistreat something that is precious.  When I lack gratitude for not paying attention, I may land myself with being selfish. Taking things for granted can take away my joy.  While I should not be a control freak, it is also important that I do not let life just pass me by.  I have to find the middle ground